Wooh! First day. Met with the seniors, juniors, and the 4th grade, and although 4th graders were such a pain in the ass, it was mostly a fun day. Ah yes, the time for revenge has come.
Kidding aside, here I am right now, reading several books that might be pertinent to my class lectures tomorrow. I have certain perceptions on certain classes but I am ignoring so as not to lose my objectivity regarding the matter.
Anyway I can’t spend much time blogging, just bumped an update here.
It’s been months since I updated this blog, frustrating my avid readers in the process (last time I checked, I got two of them). I told myself that I won’t blog until I found a job, though laziness is the more likely reason for my inactivity.
Anyway. The fact that I posted something new today means I already have a job. Last week my high school alma mater offered me to teach research to their senior students, and consequently, english literature as well to the other years. Complications and issues later, it’s final: I am going to teach 4th grade science and Junior and Senior english literature.
Sounds fun.
Except for the fact that I haven’t got experience in teaching literature, let alone english literature. I am required to teach in english, something my younger self would be horrified to know. Well yeah, I know my subject-verb agreement, and perhaps written dozens of research papers, but speaking english has never been my proverbial cup of tea. I am tempted to blame The University, or even the environment where I was raised. But it wouldn’t change my circumstances. The only solution for now it seems is to accept the fact that shit happens. I’ll just have to deal with it.
On the positive light, accepting this job may mean that I’ll continue to study for the rest of the year, which is a very good way IMO in preparing myself for the research work for the Master’s.
Oh well, I’ll start tomorrow. Let’s hope things will be less horrendous than what I expect it to be.
New Life.
New Theme.
New Priorities.
“We live immersed in narrative, recounting and reassessing the meaning of our past actions, anticipating the outcome of our future projects, situating ourselves at the intersection of several stories not yet completed.”
Indeed.
Too lazy to write. Will write in bullet form:
> Is finally graduating. All that’s left is getting the clearance.
> Is Net Surfing all day.
> Is playing Online Games (more of this later)
> Went to Mountain Province (Ifugao, Bontoc, Sagada)
> Is recovering finally from depression.
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I’m wasting my time on Online Games. Here are some of the games I am addicted to (for now)(click the name of the game to access them):
Basically stickman fighting game, matrix style. Trust me, it’s so cool.
Pokemon/Travian that sucks because you are only allowed one move per certain interval (which keeps getting longer and longer), but I still play it.
Collection of flash games which also happens to give you the chance to earn real money (chance right?) or gifts.
Play as a citizen of the world.
Pseudo-tetris with a twist: combining 3 same ingredients will produce a new ingredient.
and lastly
“Settle up your differences in the Arena”
So there. Will be wasting my time now. Later.
Still on GReeeeN marathon, saw this song at some forum, where one poster said that its the best GReeeeN song (so far). It piqued my interest and now I can’t stop listening to it :p
Below are the lyrics taken from http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/6180/greeeen/ai-uta.html. Romaji and Kanji lyrics can also be found there.
Hey, to my beloved one, please don’t laugh, will you listen to me?
I know “I love you” is already a cliche
But those are the only words I can tell you
Hey, you made fun of it and laughed again, didn’t you?
Are you happy to have chosen me?
I don’t know…
Only standing by my side spending days laughing and crying,
That has become the meaning of my life
I dedicate this love song for you
Hey, what did we talk about that day?
On the day we met for the first time, we were so distant
From there onwards, lots of things have happened, and sometimes we even fight
We spent time to understand each other
Below this wide sky, we meet and fall in love, forever
Only standing by my side spending days laughing and crying,
That has become the meaning of my life
I dedicate this love song for you
Sorry for always troubling you
We spent so much time
The memory of our days together are building up
I would like to present this clumsy song for you
“I like her so much!” I will swear to God
I will keep holding your hand
As long as I have my voice
I will always sing my love by your side
Even when I’m growing old and losing my voice,
I will always hold your hand
I can’t express how much I am thankful for you
Cries, laughs, sadness, and happiness are all shared as we continue to live
No matter how many nights have passed
I would like to sing my love with you
Below is the stream for the song, taken from esnips:
| GReeN – AI UTA.mp3 |
Enjoy!
While searching for some lyrics of Be Free by GReeeeN, I stumbled the lyrics of another song, also from GReeeeN. The translation provided by one commenter made an impression to me, which is why I am posting the translated lyrics here. Taken from http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/g/greeeen/kiseki.html. See the site for the original romaji lyrics.
I’ll love you more tomorrow than today
These overflowing emotions won’t stop
Right now I love you so much
I can’t even put it into words
The days you’ve given me accumulate
The days that have passed, the paths we walked together
Whether our meeting was coincidence
Or fate, just the fact that we met
Is a miracle
We walk close together
Making our eternal love tangible
I want to always be smiling by your side
“Thank you” and, ah, “I love you”
Just aren’t enough, just at least let me say
I’m happy
Just having your right hand
Wrapped up
In my left hand
Made me feel your love
We found the little happinesses in each day
In the slow path we walked
Our meeting is just one small thing
In a big world, but just the fact that we met
Is a miracle
Even on days when nothing goes well
Just being together cheers me up
And I can forget the bravado and loneliness
When I’m with you, lala, I can be myself
Just stay with me forever
My beloved
When we fooled around on the way home
That was one of our precious days, too
And when I finally got up the courage to tell you how I felt
The expression on your face was one I’d never seen before
There was a pause, and then you nodded
Our hearts are filled with love
We’re still on our journey
Towards the future that will hopefully continue
For dozens of years
Even if we lose sight
Of tomorrow
We walk close together
Making our eternal love tangible
I want to always be smiling by your side
“Thank you” and, ah, “I love you”
Just aren’t enough, just at least let me say
I’m happy
Even on days when nothing goes well
Just being together cheers me up
And I can forget the bravado and loneliness
When I’m with you, lala, I can be myself
Just stay with me forever
My beloved
Until the last second
I’ll be smiling more tomorrow than today
Just being with you makes me feel that way
Ten years, a hundred years, a thousand years
Let’s spend the time together
I love you
Schatz, this is for you.
Lots of time, but feels so lonely.
Day 12: Took the BA 151 exam. Lots of things happened. Ended up buying some installers.
Day 13: Bum time.
Day 14: Bum time. Reviewed for Psych 160 Lab exam, neuroanatomy. Visited the house. Bittersweet.
Day 15: Arrived at school late, with the professor giving the exam later than me. Took Psych 160 lab exam and Math 2 exam this day. Enjoyed the company in Trinoma. Another bittersweet experience.
Day 16: Bum time.
As you can see, I spent most of the past few days bumming around.
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I really liked the PV of Setsuna, sung by Greeeen. PV is below, came from youtube:
Here are the english lyrics, taken from http://redgeofsanity.wordpress.com/2009/02/17/%E5%88%B9%E9%82%A3-setsuna-by-greeeen/
We’re looking for a meaning in life, wanting to shine
We live wishing strongly, not to lose, not to whither
For instance, even on days we tear up
Just like a normal day, the sun will rise and then set again
I thought I was left behind alone in this world
But the world will turn again, it was actually tiny
Days that ran by, tears that were shed, I was looking for a meaning to live
Everyone lives to wish for that something they’re lacking
Talk about destiny, talk about life, it all only means that
I want to be laughing on my last second,
All the answers are inside my heart
In the distance, I can dimly see my future self,
It smiled and asked, “Are you living your life so you wont regret it?”
I cried a little
I thought the world was all happy, except for me
But the world will turn tomorrow too, soothing each and every tear
Days that ran by, pain that built up, I was looking for a meaning to live
Everyone lives this moment wishing for a shining tomorrow
Weak and lacking in strength, I was shivering in the darkness of the night
No one is strong, but one is only oneself carrying everything.
In those eyes that know pain, the world is colored with sadness
The tears were only at first running, but soon overflowed
Unsatisfied feelings fill me now
Did I meet ‘my proud self’? Did I choose ‘myself that’s made up with lies’?
The justice is always inside the heart,
Happiness and sadness will connect to tomorrow…
When times are sad, cry until your eyes are dry
When times are happy, laugh until your stomach hurts
When times are painful, feel the wind.
And wait until the day when you can leap high
We’re looking for a meaning in life, wanting to shine
We live wishing strongly, not to lose, not to whither
Until that day when you can reach that dream ‘you’,
Until that day comes, believe in yourself.
Romaji Lyrics taken from http://www.jpopasia.com/play/16873/greeeen/setsuna.html
kitto bokura wa kagayaki taku te
ikiru imi o sagashi te ta
make nai you ni kare nai you ni
tsuyoku negai iki te ku
koreba bokura ga namida o nagasu you na hi ni mo
itsumo to onaji you ni
hi wa nobori soshite shizun de iku
kitto sekaijuu de jibun hitori okizari da to omotta
dakedo sekaijuu wa kyou mo mawaru honto chippoke datta
kakenuke ta hibi nagashi ta namida ikiru imi o sagashi te takitto dare mo ga tari nai nani ka o negai ima o iki teru n da
unmei da toka jinsei da to ka dou ka saigo no ichi byou ni
waratte taku te tada sore dake de subete kotae wa jibun no naka
tooku ni kasuka ni mieru risou no jibun ga mata
“koukai nai you ni iki teru ?” tte hohoemi sukoshi nai ta
kitto sekaijuu no jibun igai subete shiawase to omotta
dakedo sekaijuu wa ashita mo mawaru donna namida mo iyashi te
kakenuke ta hibi kasane ta itami ikiru imi o sagashi te ta
kitto dare mo ga kagayaku ashita o negai ima wo iki teru n da
chikara tari zu ni yowai jibun ga yoru no yami ni furue te ta
dare shimo kesshite tsuyoku nai kedo subete kakae te jibun nan da
itami o shiru sono hitomi ni utsuru sekai kanashimi irodori
tada nagashi ta namida afure dashi ta nazeka michitari nai n da imasara
mune hareru jibun ni deae ta uso de katame ta jibun eran da
tadashi sa wa itsumo jibun no naka yorokobi kanashimi tsunagaru ashita
kanashii toki wa kareru made naki
ureshii toki wa hara kakae te warai
setsunai toki wa kaze o kanji te
takaku toberu hi o mate ba ii
kitto bokura wa kagayaki taku te
ikiru imi o sagashi te ta
make nai you ni kare nai you ni
tsuyoku negai iki te ku
itsuka aeru sono hi made risou no jibun ni
itsuka tadori tsuku sono hi made
jibun shinji te
For now, all I can say is that this song along with the PV somehow lightens my load a little bit and makes me smile.
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